Soul Renovation - School of Soul

As my good friends know, I almost bitched out. That's right, I almost gave up. If you have been following along you know that me and Nikki just picked up a brand new commercial space. And from the outside, I know, our lives look easy. It looks like we are constantly crushing life with no hardships. But behind the scenes it is a hot mess. That's right, we have no idea what we're doing, we got scared, and even we almost gave up. What you don't know is that 2 weeks ago, after giving our deposit cheque for our new space, I let the fear in. I let what other people said and thought scare me. I took in what was being said to me. I lost sleep, I stopped eating, I couldn't digest my food, and I started a negative thought pattern I couldn't get out of. It was a downwards spiral and next thing you know my thoughts had me telling myself ' I can't do this' ' who am I to open a store' ' I can't handle this' ' it's too much'. I called them up and told them it was too much, i was In over my head, and I had to respectively pull out. I canceled my cheque, I cried, I curled up in my bed and slept for 2 days. The hate had got to me, and it had got in my head. But then YOU cheered me on. My followers were flooding me with encouraging messages filled with their stories of how I have changed their lives over the last year and the difference I have made in their live by leading by example. I scrolled through and read my entire feed from the day I started this Instagram. I gave my head a shake, I didn't come this far to give up now. What was I doing?? I don't back down, and I'm sure as F* not going to let someone bully me out of my dream. If I give up now, If I back down to these bully's, then... What's next? I give up every time something gets hard? I give up every time someone doesn't like what I'm doing? F* no, screw that, and screw them. I realized that it wasn't personal. The hate we received had nothing to do with us. It had to do with them. We were a mirror to them, and what they weren't doing with their lives. I realized that they wanted what we had, and instead of supporting us, they cut us down. I thought what kind of example am I setting. Continues in comments 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻