Expect Chaos When You Are Leveling Up

I'm here to tell you not as a warning but as a courtesy because no one ever told me what to expect as I changed myself. My oh my, oh how I always take on so much with the absolute best intentions and absolute blissful ignorance to my band witch and the fact that I am in fact still human. My body simply does not keep up with my mind.  It came to me like I realized through making my own trauma timeline literally like literally every time that my life falls apart or things get really messy it's always right after I make a new Vision Board and I ask for more.

Like literally and then I realized that right before I lost my health, my wealth , like everything that happened in all those years right after I made my first vision board like the first time I asked for this huge life all of a sudden everything left my life everything fell away everything fell apart.

You know I did hear signs before it happened but I didn't listen.

And you know how the universe works,  is it gives you signs and messages and nudges and if you don't listen eventually it gives you a shove,  it'll shove you right off the cliff or rip that thing right out of your life or i notice when it comes to people what'll end up happening is something horrible will happen between you and that person that makes it so impossible that you couldn't do anything except for separate from them whatever that might be and this is because the universe knows you're not going to let go because of attachment and so it has to make it that horrific so you do let go sometimes.

There's like a false expectation when you read law of attraction or manifestation books and you think that you're gonna make a vision board. Are you gonna ask for this huge life and it's just gonna be like this wonderful beautiful experience the whole way? That's not really how it often happens.

I mean you can only actually recognize this looking back but after i've been looking back it's become very clear the more i ask for and every time i ask larger that's when i should expect that things are going to get messier.I want you to know that this is going to happen - i want you to know this so when this does happen you KNOW it is part of the process - you expected it to happen - you prepared for it to happen - and when it arrives you are going to handle it like a champ and not get derailed. It can only derail you if you do not see it coming. 

This is the power of having mentors - they can tell you what to expect in life - what will be around the corner as you take the next turn in the game - this will result in less surprises and stress.

Lean in when the difficult times come - it means you're that much closer to the next level. You must go through the challenge. Hold your head high, breathe, and get it fucking done.

I remind myself when the chaos comes - I choose this - I did the work - I passed the levels and I asked for a LARGER life. And it is time to allow and surrender to letting go of the old for the new to take over.